Wednesday, July 25.

YESTERDAY:
today...i had a studio art excursion to the NGV INTERNATIONAL - GUGGENHEIM COLLECTION. so i came the same time i usually come, coz mike had school, so i just bummed the first period with hiran, since many people weren't at school because of the UMAT. later alyssa came, so i meet up with her at the same time, lauren came along. so popped down to GOSH for coffee. and went back to school to wait for the rest of the class.

we caught the train to flinders station. as we got there, there was definitely something wrong with lauren. she was literally on a sico highness. we got to flinders station and then we had 30min break before we head over to the NGV International. lauren wanted a sundae so we went over to maccas, and then yea... they didn't serve sundaes that early and went screaming it around the place...=/ really embrassing. so we went to hungry jacks so she could get one. and she finally got one. after we headed over to the gallery. we spent an hour listening to the same lady again, who has taken us for lectures for the past two years... soooooo boring!! then spent an hour looking at the gallery. it wasn't that great. i liked the picture bellow but the green verison which is behind it. and also this fantasy one which was really cool and different to the rest of the collection. i didnt really see the last bit, coz it was really disgusting. like there was a tiled board and it had ripped open bits which consisted of guts and body inners. so it was really disgusting.

then we had LUNCH!! omgosh.... sooo good =P i had pasta and all time favourite - ALL BERRY BANG from boost sooo good =P!! and yea... went over to suga after wards to buy my lollies! iigot watermelon rock this time. i should of brought my rapsberry rock jar along to refill it. but i forgot. um... after that we went home. nothing interesting. we were suppose to take the photos and yea... but we didnt. sucks... so friday!!


TODAY:
i only had two classes because, i had a free in the morning and i had another excursion today too. so i had studio arts and that was a bludge again, but i did some drawings this time. and then i had a period of accounting. and that was a bit random. at recess we left to our excursion to watch "A View From The Bridge" at the Melbourne Arts Centre. i hadnt been there before, so everything seem new to me. ahh... we got in. and we thought that if we got in first we would get good seats but we didnt. we got shit ass seats. front row seat which made my neck ache and we couldn't see anything. and yea... it was really bad. coz we had to read off things at the bottom. quite crap.

the play is a good play. but the way they acted it out wasnt that good. coz they didnt even have one of the main characters in it. and they only had four people acting which was good in away but it was quite bad. after it finished, preet, alyssa and i went to melbourne central. and alyssa went and bought her vintage store - EPISODE. and got a cute dress, and then we went to the crepe store and got CREPES SOOO GOOD =P nutella, cream and ice cream... ohhh yummy!! um... then we went into tempt, and i bought a cute dress, it's gold. and then we took the train home, as we bumped into sammie and jen on the way. and all five of us took the train home. we had our talks. funny talks. random talks.

got back to glenny and preet went home, and i went with alyssa home =P ahhhhh..... sooo sleepy


you know lately... i've been feeling crappy and very insecure. everything around me seems disappearing from me. things i want don't happen or they dont appear, and things i dont want happening they happen or they do appear. i feel lost in my own world. and dont know when i'll be on my feet again. i want things to be normal. i want things to be the way they use to be. but i know things wont ever be normal. you dont get the things you ever want. you get things you always hate. at the moment, i'm getting all the bad luck i see through my eyes. i just hope things will get better soon. coz i really need it =[
LOVing'yoU

{ 5:46 pm }

Monday, July 23.

well... as you can see, it is my lovely mini head's 18th today. although, her and i had a rough night, with dramas associated with men, everything was fine by the morning. i came to school, and since she was late, which is unusual, chelle and i stuck up a happy birthday sign for the little thing =P. and we were waiting for her to come. but... she didn't rock up in time, and period one had already begun. so after that boring period one. i came out and found the tadpole. and gave her a BIG huggy =D. anyways... only had four periods today, accounting, further, and double english. so i didn't have anything today practically. um... yea...lunch we head down to the coffee bean and preetumz and i bought her lunchi =P. then later we head back to school, and chatted through a double with timmy!! caught up with a lot of stuff. and doddled in his diary..my bad =P

after school, alyssa, chelle, and preetumz down to the photo shot thingy, and sooo fun!! we spent a whole period there taking pictures =P we all had cat ears!! chelle had black, i had pink and preet had tiger prints, and for alyssa, MINNE EARS!!soooo fun!! me and preetumz are going to take one of friday... and i want another one with TIM!! hahahahhaha gotta have one with timmy =P

LOVing'yoU

{ 6:33 pm }

Saturday, July 21.

YESTERDAY:
just came back from a not so good day. i had chinese school and then i went to have lunch. and bummed with my cousin for an hour. and then i was suppose to go hang out with jack for the last time while he was here. but instead like usual... the boy was late. not 10mins. not half an hour. not one hour. but two hours late. and i thought girls were bad =P so during that time i had wasted my time a lot. when i could of been doing homework. but it's not like i wanted to.
um... so jack came out, eventually, at 3:30. and this time i wasn't annoyed with him. because it was my last time seeing him for a while. ah... we sat at the station for a while. and then walked for a bit and end up at the school. sat there and talked, what would happen to him, and me. later walked back to the station where we met up with simon. the guyz were suppose to go have a hair cut in box hill at 2:30. but just seemed like the guyz slept in like usual. and i missed my bus. and then the guyz blamed me for missin their own bus. coz they were waiting for me to go. bt it wasn't my fault. eventually i found another bus. and took that home. and i gave jackie a hug and that was the last time i saw him =] as he was heading off to get a hair cut.

TODAY:
i spent my time writing a very long letter today. at lunch went to have yum cha with the family. and then came home, and went for a walk with alyssa, to jack's place. coz the letter was for him. and i called his phone a couple of times, and he didn't pick up so we just dropped it off at his house. and now... i'm not doing any work coz i cbf doing anything at the moment.

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has anyone ever felt you've lost something? something important to you. something your scared of loosing. coz i have. i've been scared of loosing one thing for over three years. and during these three years, it's been difficult not spilling it. but until now... i did what seemed right but seemed wrong. something so important to me, i have let go. a secret that is never been told. although its a relief it's out. but it's scary when its out. im scared. =] LOVing'yoU

{ 8:01 pm }

Tuesday, July 17.

well... it's a big start again using this blog huh?
i think yr 12 has kicked in and i just haven't had the time and the will to continue with this. but i'm trying my best at the moment trying to avoid reading my english notes.
So half the year has gone by already only a term and a half left. not long until the red, blue and white is gone. let's see what has happened in the pass half a year...

1. my birthday - well... i turned 17 this year. n we went to the city for my birthday, with nat, shirlie, danny, nam, preet, alyssa - i think and lauren. um... we went laser forcing. and me and preet figured we suck at the game. but it was really fun =P bt it went pass too quickly. only a 20min game. that was in the term1 holidays. so first week back, on the thursday that was my birthday. and it was another long day! but a very good day=P. had msgs starting from 12. like usual - PREET!! um... i got plenty of wuzhun things and farenheit stuff=P. from nat, nam, shirlie, jen, tim, danny, and david teoh, i got tokyo juliet, wuzhun magazine, a mud cake and a pink sunflower. THNX. alyssa got me... farenheit's album, so i have the original copy, a bag, and a make up bag.thnx love! preet gave me a bracelet which says ' catherine' at the top and '<3BFFL (BEST FRIEND FOR LIFE)' at the back. lauren gave me jessica simpson's yummi lip glossy!! um... anne and christine gave me this nice combination, and since i LOVE pink. the whole entire thing was pink =P. i got a cool ring, necklace and earrings. very nice!! nishu made me a scrap book. hahaha it was very very nice =P coz it had the most randomness things. and it was beautiful!! vizzi gave me a necklace which i got today! it's really pretty, and its purple =D!!
   
   
   
2. PIRATES OF THE CARRIBEAN - AT WORLD'S END had finally came out!! but i had no time to watch it because there was exams coming up soon. so preet, shirlie and i went and watched it after the last exam. it was quite shit compared to the other two. there were many funny moments but like the only moment i enjoyed was the bit where will and elizabeth get married on the boat, and their fighting and captain barbossa is conducting the wedding which leads to a sad and shit ending. i rekon they could of done something with it.
   
   
3. i had a couple of the accounting seminars. so i went to the city one which cost $40 and i went with my accounting little group - jono, alysson, grace, hugh, and pauline. met up with shirlie and charissa. it was quite good at the start then it got really boring and yea.. we end up mucking around. um.. after that we went to DFO with the girls. the week after..went to the school seminar. and i bummed with shirliefish and we had lunch together. and bought tablets to help us study - glucose and caffine tablets =$ they help... welll glucose tablets are just like a lolly!
   
   
4. so within a couple of weeks i had my accounting mid year exams. i wasn't ready. and it was actually quite scary. but in the end i did it. and the results come out in a month time from now. =S worried that i will get a shit mark!! i feel sorry for nutha.. her birthday was on her chem exam!! and i just got her birthday prezzie...=$
   
   
5. two weeks after that... it was the formal!! and..... JACK CAME BACK =D so jack was suppose to come back last thursday, but instead he came back spot on the formal. so the guyz and i helped him get in. but teacher busted him so he was kicked out... but overall the formal was a great night!! i was wearing a black dress. and it was pretty. except it was a bit wild.. so mummy fixed it up. i had purple and black earrings, so i had the black and purple thing going. i went to alyssa's house and we all (josh, justin, kapi, alex, hugh, nat, divya, vanja, chelle, alysson, and alyssa) went to the formal in our chevy. the formal was at remebrants. venue was great. everyone looked hot!!
   
6. me and jack
   
   
   
7. mid year holidays... two weeks go by fast huh? first weekend, alyssa preet and i went to lauren's scout production. and i thought it was good =P it was cute and funny!! i like the egyptian one better then the king and queen one. that one was too confusing. the week after i was suppose to go paintballing for alyssa's 18th since she wanted to do something now then during school times. but the stoopid paint ball place was closed until the end of 13th. so it pretty much sucked coz i was really excited!! first thursday... i went shopping with jackkie and we caught up a little bit. it was weird coz i hadn't seen him and talk to him for a long time. like as a proper talk. so everything was a bit weird. we headed down to knox. and we were done shopping by... 2. i got all the birthday prezzie i had to get. later we went back to glenny coz jack need to meet up with simon and that was weirder coz i dont know simon and it was all quiet and stuff. later went home coz it was mum's birthday!! next day was divya's 18th party and it was LAUREN's 18th BIRTHDAY. we bummed around, a typical party. except i stayed away from a couple of people before i would have done something to them. day after was DIVYA's actual BIRTHDAY. and then it was JOHN's 19th BIRTHDAY! then week i went out with alyssa to watch harry potter in 3D. and i thought it was boring coz i hadnt read it or seen anything. so i was pretty much lost..=S um.. that day was NAM & SHIRLIE'S 18th BIRTHDAY!! woke up shirlie accidentally ...=$ and the day after was lauren's party. very interesting party. it was a theme, a world trip . we stopped at hawaii and then landed in australia and went to paris. very funny and interesting. saturday was suppose to have dinner with jack and preet, but someone didn't end up coming.

so now it leads up to now... term 3 has begun, and its nearly the final step... and at the moment i am really scared. i'm scared of loosing everyone. and i'll just have only memories of them. nam said we'll stay in touch. we wont forget people. but what's the chance of that i think... there is no chance. i'm just going to not see these people ever again, unless i go find them. i won't bump into them. i think that's what i'll miss most. i'll miss the people around me. even those i don't like that much. it's because i feel safe around them. going to the open world. different people. and what's worst people forgetting about other people. like i see people around me at school and either i or them have forgotten about the past. i don't like the past. neither do i like the present. i like the way it is now. although high school gives us the most dramas... i'll miss all of that. =] really don't want to forget the people i really love and have been by myside the past years. i'm going to miss that alot. . . .

anywayz should do something reading have a SAC tomorrow - need to pass!!

cattty x O x O x LOVing'yoU

{ 9:33 pm }