later on that night... wasn't that great either. i found out that nutty, actually likes cashew... and i was shocked to the point where i was angry and i had nothing to say to nutty. and i haven't really said much to nutty about it since friday night. everytime, nutty brings it up, i do get very annoyed and i get really fustrated as well. because i don't want to hear it, and i dont want to face the facts. i honestly want both nutty and cashew to be happy, but this is no the way i want it to be like. i'm meeting up with nutty soon along with a friend.. so i wonder how that will go. nutty is going to bring it up with cashew soon too. so im quite worried. i was soo angry that i couldn't even sleep that night! i kept tossing and i woke up soo tired and still annoyed!!! not fair =[

anyways... YESTERDAY - SATURDAY, it was david's farewell suprise party hosted by saranch, shiwen and alex! david is my ex boyfriend for those who dont know lol like lester LOL. i'll explain that a bit later =P we've been friends but on and off friends, but we do mean alot of each other. so he's going to be one of those minister thingys for his church, so he'll be going around a selected country to promote his religion. so he's actually going to canada, toronto, and he'll be doing it for 2 years, before he comes back home. so yea... i initially didnt want to go. but seeing that i always disappoint him, i thought since he's acutally leaving, i should see him, even though i have to deal with the other people i dont like lol. but yea... preet came picked me up. and it was the first time she actually drove me! she was a pretty good driver!! so yea we got there pretty early actually, but we went to dan murphys and i just need a catalog and preet thought she'd get david a drink.. but didnt know what he liked so she passed! haha. eventually we got there.. and alot of his mates were there. like i saw ben!! haha he's a funny boy.. which i never really talk to =S um... who else.. i saw isabel but didnt talk to her. oh i saw john!!! i love john =P he's such a sweet heart haha so we went into la porchetta, the people there are soo retarded. we had 2 sets of tables, and saranch booked for 18 ppl, but they split the table up as 12-14 and then 6-8 ppl with these 2 lots. and i was like what the hell. and me and preet moved from the big table to the small table because of nish and kelly. so we moved and lester came and sat with us, and this what's funny. lester is clueless. so he was like 'so why are you here?' so i was being direct, 'i'm his ex girlfriend' and lester flipped lol hahaha it was pretty funny. later on, he kinda made jokes, like he asked preet ' so your here because your his ex girlfriend as well?' he's pretty funny! eventually david and his girlfriend came in, and he got a massive suprise haha the poor boy was crying =[ i hate it when he cries... so i dont look haha. later that night saranch comes up to me, and he's like did you see him cry? and im i had to make something up. because really, if i did see him cry, i would would have cried myself because i feel him, i feel that pain that he going through... and i'll cry. so i was like i'll cry myself if i saw him. and then we were talking.. and i was like i dont really talk to him much now.. so its just werid, and saranch was like really? david says you always talk to him, and i'm like... errr... he's the one that always talks to me, and its either pretty late or really random. so we dont talk that much. he found that werid, so did i haha. i think i talk a bit loud, or david's like listening to what i say, coz he's always catching me say things hahaha. like after awhile, i was like should i go over to talk to him? and out the blue, he comes over, and i was like oh hi.. hahaha. and i gave his present, it's a drak grey cardi with black buttons and lining thingy. he was really shocked coz he didnt expect me to get him anything. but yea... and then later after dinner they were all taking pics, and i was like shouldnt we be in it? hahaha and then preet goes 'cat, he heard you!' and im like shit!! hahaha. so yea.. after we ate - by the way.. la porchetta at the glen waverley sucks! we headed to happy cup and got mike a cup of green ice with green jelly thingy. and then we headed to century city walk, where everyone else was there. and majority of the people had already left. and we pretty much had to just say good bye to david. but preet and nish wanted to go back to preet's place for awhile, and since preet just got her license she was scared to drive an additional person, and made ben drive me there... so much troublesome! but we were talking to david, and preet asked him if he was going to miss his gf, and he goes ' i dont think she'll wait for me' and it was soo sad. but i knew that would come. coz you can't hold on to someone and expect them to wait for you, especially 2years.. its quite a long time! eventually we have to say our goodbyes. and i hate goodbyes... they are the worst things ever. and me and david have this strange look each time we each other... and it was really hard saying bye... preet hugged him and said bye.. and so did nish, and i gave him a hug.. and i didnt want to look him in the eyes.. and i was just like take good care of yourself. and i just walked away. i couldnt bare seeing him cry, so i hided behind ben.. and ben the tool kept pulling me to the front, and when david actually walked away... although he was holding hands with his girlfriend... he turned around and gave a wave along with a sad face.. and i couldnt hold it in... i just cried.. sad i know... but i just cried... its was a hard goodbye. so then ben drove me to preet's and bummed at preet's for awhile and then she drove me home.

saranch and my retarded friend nishi pointing to some thing strange lol