Wednesday, February 25.

hi. i know i haven't blogged in a week or so.. maybe because i've been tired and alot has been on my mind. although there isn't much but its been in my head for quite sometime. and i think i just want to write it out again. so bare with me =]

ah... ive been talking to my best friend lately, the one i havent spoken for a while now, lets name them... nutty, hahaha. and it's been really strange talking them because all they would talk about would be about... ahh cashew haha! and know about how cashew loves nutty. well almost loves them, but is at the stage of only liking them. so although i haven't spoken to nutty for almost a month now, it just seems weird and strange that they keep talking to me about cashew, like everything nutty would say it would involve cashew. and i dont know... i dont know if nutty has found out that cashew has a crush on nutty, or nutty is simply liking cashew. i honestly dont like the fact cashew is crushing on nutty. and i dont like how nutty keeps talking about cashew hahaa.
i know im werid. but it feels like me and nutty are starting to distant from each other. like there's nothing really i have to say to them, and nutty has nothing really to say to me. but im scared of loosing nutty as my friend.

my other best friend... almond haha, um... they told me to be happy and be there for them if they were to be together, nutty and cashew. when almond told me that. i was pretty angry. i understand you can't prevent it from happening. but almond has suck by my side with this whole disagreement. i dont understand why he would say that. the only reason why i dont uphold this, is because the moment they are together, i must walk away. i can't be there and i cant be by nutty's side. it's happen to me more than once. and it does happen that way. there's no way to prevent it from happening. cashew may say its fine... but deep down i know how they are feeling. jealousy - its written all over them. but almond even told, nutty that he thought cashew and nutty were cute together. but i still want to prevent it form hapening. i cant face the fact that nutty and cashew may end up together. im scared of that day from happening.

nutty think they are just friends.. but i would like to question nutty, do you really think you are just friends? simply just friends? i want to know. all that is on my mind is, if nutty really does cashew. if that day comes, to become a yes, i think thats the day i back away and step away from everything. i honestly, dont mind nutty having a partner or someone they liked. but i dont want nutty to like some one from this strange stupid group of ours. i want nutty to find someone decent enough to become nutty's partner. not someone like cashew. they are too complicated and confusing and have too much/many problems with their lives that seem to be unsolvable. nutty doesnt deserve that.

most of all... i miss nutty alot. nutty's my best friend, we've been friends since yr 9.. soo its been about 5 years almost. so nutty means alot to me. i rely on nutty alot. they always have my back when im in the most terriblest situation, or when im over the moon. nutty's always there for me no matter what happens. and i truly love nutty for that. for all the things they have done for me. listen to me bitch, whine, complain, brag, hahaha the list goes on... im really grateful for nutty. so nutty, i love you very much! and i think thats what cashew likes about nutty too.

i think that's all i had to say. so yea... on friday there will be a proper post =] im going to the beach again! i can't wait hehehe. anyways toodles!!! LOVing'yoU

{ 11:39 pm }

Thursday, February 12.

today, i had fun! actually it was quite awhile i actually enjoyed myself just bumming with my girl pals. although hanging out with lauren is great and all, but its always just us, it was fun having someone else around to muck around with =P and today was my craziest, energetic friend and all time favourite... BHABITHA!!

bhabitha has been to queensland, townsville to study pharmacy. so basically we can only see her when ever the long breaks are on, and that's like the summer break and the mid year break. and usually this girl is soooo busy its unbelievable!! she has like booked out week of family weddings and functions - family and dance i suppose. so anyways... we finally found a day she was free, so we decided to just hang with her, and also that she wasn't feeling too great ( emotional problems), but she didnt seem like it when we were with her, although she did have a good ol' bitch and it was so awesome, because it reminded me of her in high school. she's the best!

anyways we went to the glen because, we didnt want to go knox coz certain people were there and we didnt want to bump into them, or we didnt want them to annoy us. it's probably our 2nd time in 2yrs seeing her! so.. it meant a big deal! however, lauren drove us to the glen, and we went to coffee bean. i got my usual - white chocolate ice blended (coffee base) and bhabz got a iced coffee! we sat there for a while and just chatted before we headed off.

so we slowly headed down the glen, and looking at things we wanted. and we went to wittners because i LOVE wittners. i was wearing my nike airs so i couldnt try on the sexy pumps! but lauren did =P the silver one she has on reminded me of sharpay hehehe. later we headed to country road, and then to portmans, and in portmans we were fully mucking around and so we were trying out their sunnies =P and posing hahaha. it was soo awesome! so yea below are our photos! enjoy =]

LOVing'yoU

{ 11:20 pm }

Tuesday, February 10.

hi all =]

i've decided i'm going to come back and blog. mostly so i can just get a lot of things off my chest. because it's pointless telling some people. and i think most of my friends are done with me bitching or constantly just listening to my stuff, so i'll just say what i need to say here.

well.. since i have the time to write anything i want at the moment, since i am still on holidays, i shall write what has happen the last week! because i cant seem to get it out of my mind! by the way.. it will be a VERY LONG POST! hahahaha sorry =P

so anyways... at the start of the week. i had nothing really until wednesday. thats when, natty planned a day out to the beach which really consisted of...BOYS [nam, danny, david t, jason, sidney, willie, and tat] and then only 3 girls [nat, shirlie and me]. so anyways, we were to meet up at dan murphys by 11:30. i got there early, so i hopped down to the glen, and i spoke to amanda coz she was working at the body shop, and i thought i would apply for a job there. then i walked over to gloria jeans and got myself a large cup of creme brulee chiller, which was sooo good - since i haven't had it for a while.. well.. sorta while, and i spoke to jordan, from primary school. and that was a werid chat. lol anways it was time, so i popped over to dan murphys where most of the people were.
we had to move some stuff over to people's cars - only jason, tat, danny and nam were driving. after we had organised everything. we hopped into the cars. so basically, jason drove david and willie; tat drove sidney - since he's on red P's, nam drove all the girls and danny was left alone to drive by himself because supposedly he was a bad driver.... so we're all getting down to chelsea beach... and the 3 drivers - nam, danny and tat, decided they would race down springvale road, with people in their cars =] how smart are my friends... seriously!! anyways... we finally arrived to the beach and it was sooooo clean and clear and there was NO ONE! it wasnt even packed. probably because we went on a wednesday and becasue everyone was at school hehehe =P
so anyways.. here are some piccysanways afterwards we had dinner, so we drove all the way back to glenny but we stopped at nam's cousin's house before we headed over, because he wanted to give a birthday present and he wanted to check out his cousin's car or some sort. so i have a pic of me in danny's front seat... he would or he might of killed me IF he found out lol. oh wells =P so yea, we head over to shine to have dinner and then we went to strike because nat wanted to go play pool. so yea..

thursday, was quite interesting actually... it was then when i figured out my friend likes my best friend! and i aint happy! i know i should be... but i feel like that person has taken my best friend away from me. i'm mostly scared that i'll lose my best friend to my friend. i've been friends with my best mate for a while now, since in yr 9... so about 6 years almost... and i've just gradually getting to know this friend much better now. and i've been thru these situation quite often now.. and i'm extremly scared that i'll loose that person to them... my friend told me, and at the time i was fine with it... but i've realised that i'm not fine at all.. more to the fact, i miss my best friend.... i'll miss how we hang, and how they can listen to me talk about the most stupidest and nonsense thing. but i'm also angry at them. because although i'm not involved yet i am.. i'm in a position where i can't really say anything at all. but even so... my best friend has pushed me over, and aspects me to understand them, when clearly i dont. my best friend has summer school at the moment. whenever i go into the city to hang out with my other friends, i'll always message them, saying i'm in the city if you want to come find me later after class. but all they say to me, is that their too busy and that they dont want to, and they want to really really pass summer school. and i understand that, so the past month or so, i haven't bugged them about hanging with me. but the fact that i get told not to bother them durring this period, yet they have nothing to say to the friend that goes and visits them. that annoys me, and yet i have no idea what they want. if i did that, they would be angry at me. so i dont. but if you had said it to me, i expect you to say that to everyone else, and it applies to everyone else not just me. and this gets me angry. it's like im a push over. i'm also concerned that i don't mean that such to my best friend. which is disappointing and scary... to a point. anyways this has been bothering me for a week now. yet my friend pretends that everything is okay, when i'm literally dying inside, and totally against it. and also they are acting wayyy to werid for my likings as well.... they are constantly talking to me, and they never did before. i dont want things to change. i wish my friend never liked my best friend..what's worse we're all in this group thing. and my friend's ex-boyfriend is my best friend's best friend if you get that lol. and they are totally fine with it... i hate getting into these complicated situations....
anyways on thursday.. i went to chaddy with my cousin, daniel, at around 2ish. the bastard came late and made me wait...lol really wasn't a good day too! burnt legs walking around chadstone...=S anyways he wanted to get quite a few things, but he was sooo picky and couldn't find anything but a new wallet, and it had to be 'simple' that consisted of no coin pouch no zips just a notes section and card thingys. so he ended up getting a wallet from country road for $60. while i got a top from myer, and it was a bardot top which cost me $35. its pretty =] and then i bought lauren her dotti glasses for $26ish i think. so thats all i bought that day.

saturday was a very longggg day but it didn't seem to be long. well i got up at 8 in the morning, and i was suppose to go to chinese school, which my parents believe i go to. so anyways, dad dropped me off at glen high, and i walked all the way to tim's house! that was a long walk man.. i've never done something like that before, well.. maybe i have, but i was already sweating in the morning at 9 in the morning!!! it was sooo hot! and it had to walk up and down hills and it was just not a really good morning to walk in, although it was alright. anyways i got to tim's at 9:35ish and he was suppose to be awake. but i think when i arrived he like woke up his whole family =P if i was him, i wouldn't have done that!! so i had to wait for him to get ready and all tha jazz. while nick, tim's older brother was asking me questions about uni and stuff. and then his mum was asking if i was going to go with tim to korea, she asked this becasue, we were going to a flight centre travel expo, and tim wanted me to go with him to korea. and so finally tim got ready, and his dad drove us to the tram stop on burwood highway. we were so lucky coz we got there just in time when the tram came!!! so yea we made it in time. it took us about an hr or so to get into the city. and we decided we would go to DFO spencer street before we went to the expo. anyways, we got there and tim was going to to find shorts coz he needed some. but he didnt end up buying any there. but i bought a beach towel because i needed one and i didnt want to share with my brother =S it was quite cute =P i bought it from cotton on kids! and it was for $20, its navy blue and white stripes and it has red fringy thingys.. and then i bought a top from peter alexander for $19 BARGIN =P haha it was pretty nice as top from a sleepwear store. its a cream t-bar tank top and it's a button up and it has cream silk linning on the side, red sequins and red silk ribbon! sooo cute. i know aly is going to pinch it when she comes home hahaha. before heading to the melbourne exhibition centre we went to starbucks and got our favourite frappacinos, i had a white chocolate mocha and tim had his green tea. so we arrived to the expo, and boy there were sooo many stalls and sooo many flight centre people. but the thing is... i say never book anything on flight centre if you want a cheaper price for your trip, try finding the country's airline, like since we're going to korea, look for korea air. because we went to flight centre and we asked and they gave us singapore airlines, which costed $1708 including tax, but we then went to korea air and they gave us about $1200ish including tax, but if were to go to japan via korea, and since we have an australian passport, we can stay in korea for up to 90days including going to japan! how awesome is that!! and thats about $1400ish sooo much cheaper than what flight centre was giving us! so yea we were pleased about that! so now i've got my head into the travel guide and seeing what we could do there! hahaha me and tim are over the moon now =P
so anways here some pics of me and tim =]

LOVing'yoU

{ 11:04 pm }