Saturday, July 21.

YESTERDAY:
just came back from a not so good day. i had chinese school and then i went to have lunch. and bummed with my cousin for an hour. and then i was suppose to go hang out with jack for the last time while he was here. but instead like usual... the boy was late. not 10mins. not half an hour. not one hour. but two hours late. and i thought girls were bad =P so during that time i had wasted my time a lot. when i could of been doing homework. but it's not like i wanted to.
um... so jack came out, eventually, at 3:30. and this time i wasn't annoyed with him. because it was my last time seeing him for a while. ah... we sat at the station for a while. and then walked for a bit and end up at the school. sat there and talked, what would happen to him, and me. later walked back to the station where we met up with simon. the guyz were suppose to go have a hair cut in box hill at 2:30. but just seemed like the guyz slept in like usual. and i missed my bus. and then the guyz blamed me for missin their own bus. coz they were waiting for me to go. bt it wasn't my fault. eventually i found another bus. and took that home. and i gave jackie a hug and that was the last time i saw him =] as he was heading off to get a hair cut.

TODAY:
i spent my time writing a very long letter today. at lunch went to have yum cha with the family. and then came home, and went for a walk with alyssa, to jack's place. coz the letter was for him. and i called his phone a couple of times, and he didn't pick up so we just dropped it off at his house. and now... i'm not doing any work coz i cbf doing anything at the moment.

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has anyone ever felt you've lost something? something important to you. something your scared of loosing. coz i have. i've been scared of loosing one thing for over three years. and during these three years, it's been difficult not spilling it. but until now... i did what seemed right but seemed wrong. something so important to me, i have let go. a secret that is never been told. although its a relief it's out. but it's scary when its out. im scared. =] LOVing'yoU

{ 8:01 pm }